© Photography: André Nitschke. The boundaries which divide Life from Death are at best shadowy and vague. Who shall say where the one ends, and where the other begins? - Edgar Allan Poe
If you are a highly motivated to read my near death experience...
I'm going to start with the more serious part... If I have to leave, it must be like this. I learned to be accepting. I waited a few hours before getting medical attention. I asked for a bed because of my dizziness. I couldn't stand up. I was put in a dark corner. In a crisis when you are alone, you can't call anyone. So I let the pain take its course and didn't try to struggle. I had a 40° fever, a pain in my chest that kept me from breathing and I felt it all flow back to my brain. Little by little my heart stopped beating. I knew I was going to take a trip so I folded up like a baby in the fetal stage. I closed my eyes and thought to myself: as long as I go away in my sleep. It’s strange that feeling of being totally out of your body and knowing that there may not going back! I didn't feel any more pain. I saw everything around me and left to see what I was used to seeing...
Oh my gosh! Angel of death is here! Run, run, run!!! I hope he didn't see me...
Hello, the one who takes care of the souls that depart from this world! Glad to see me here for the fifth time? And this voice answered me what I was doing there since it was not my time! I told him: that is a good question my friend! Is this the work of the angel of death? I left before the time has come! [...] Please, I would like you to send me right away to what people call hell, which is just my machine of destruction for damned souls. I have something to take care of since he has allied himself with human beings to prevent all the Children of the Sun from reaching their divine potential! I have been attacked by witchcraft and that’s why I’m here. I saw this thing take part of me to kill me before and they forgot that you can't unfairly attack a very high spiritual person...
I walk in the parallel world. There are several levels, doors and dimensions. I fly over an ocean of lava with the damned souls up to a cliff. I arrive at my destination and see lots of gigantic pyramids with ancient inscriptions. I say to myself, let's go! I come up against what you call "the evil eye". I forget to say that my soul can fly. I come up to his height. He sees me, I see him. I'm not afraid of him because this is the jail I've created for him in the past. It's not my first time. The pretty scar he left me. I decided to enter his retina and dove in without hesitation! He showed me all of my fears, traumas, sorrows, all of the negativity, despair and real madness. All that you don't want to see and that very often the easiest thing is to hide your face. I decided to listen to it and remedy with compassion and wisdom. I said to him: are you making me doubt? Because if so, yes of course, I constantly doubt and always question myself. On the other hand, could you change my destiny that I have already tried to make? Yeah, maybe I'm not that different from you in this madness. What is the madness of wanting to love too much? True love doesn't cause pain. Even if I were fail in this pure madness, I saw that your brother will forever continue to love me for who I am! Could I change our respective nature? I took the trouble to listen to you and see everything you wanted to show me. This is the way you see it since part of it is all illusion and lies to me. It's your truth but will never be mine. I can see and endure yours, the pain, but can you accept mine? What is right or wrong? Know that I have learned from your lessons. I've rectified the course of things for a better evolution: the freedom of all souls. I got up where you chose to give up.
So why did you attack me if there is place for everybody? We only need a balance but you don't want it. So wouldn't you take on your own fears of this change? The Universe takes back Her rights over what this world has always been! Everything is already written in black and white. The only thing I know for sure is that you were not created for the purpose of allying yourself with humanity. So you didn't respect the rules of the Universe in any way since you were part of it. Neither you nor I have the right to intervene and that's why I had to come back down to Earth: to remind you of the rules as well as love. There has never been a war and it might be time to set yourself free too. You attacked me unfairly to kill me before! I have the right to show you all the light of my love and to take back your army to build my project... this is my right. Without you, the Universe would never have been such a wonder, splendour, so divine and complete. She's perfectly imperfect and imperfectly perfect... Thank you but it's your time now. By showing him all my fondest memories, his evil eye burned. His last sentence is: she's more powerful than I thought. My tree of life has resurfaced in all its splendour! There is victory of life over death.I felt so at peace that I didn't want to come back! But, I have lots of things to do on Earth. And then I had to wake up with the death army. And here I'm alive one more day!
Now, the funny anecdote! By the time I was brought to the emergency I was in septic shock from an infection: bacteria in the blood. When the nurse woke me up with a shot of adrenaline, my soul was still between life and death. I couldn't recognise what was our reality, the dream world, the nightmare, the white tunnel, heaven or hell. Nobody wanted me! Haha! Never try to wake up a person who sees dead souls suddenly! She did a covid test and asked me if I had the vaccine. If not, did I want to do it? This is when I see a lot of dead people saying "No, don't do it!" And who starts to run after me. So I ran, still not knowing if I was hallucinating, if I was living real life, or if I was getting stuck in Resident Evil. I was running and screaming "Let me! I understand that you want to protect me but not like this! ". It wasn't until a few hours later that I came to myself ... Yeah, there it is, I see the white light! The one everyone is talking about! The pretty light of the hospital lighting! I try to stand up and realise I'm tied from head to toe! People ask me if I know where I am. I told them yes, the hospital but I don't know what kind… because my bed looked like a psychiatric hospital! What day is it? No answer, I don't remember ... Have I been drugged? Strangely, he was the strongest nurse treating me and no one else wanted to come near. So I asked him what happened to be tied up like that? Did I hit someone? He replied that I verbally assaulted a nurse, that I tried to run away from the hospital half naked... That I was seriously ill and I can die now! He caught up with me, they carried me, tied me up and gave me the shot that calmed me. Don't you remember anything? But, everything is fine now! And if no one comes near, it's because for a patient, you have a lot of energy! You are very mysterious to us! Nobody got it! It was a surprise! I'm starting to cry because people in hospital saw my little booty!
I wrote a lovely message for the whole team thanking them for caring me with an apology about the incident. They are my heroes!
Yes! I did it just before they caught me! Freeeeeeedooooooooom!!! Yeaaaaah!
My life is a video game...
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